Lyrics

Lord I don't know what You want from me
I'm getting tired of the same old thing
I wish that I could think of something new
I wish I could stop questioning you
Do I believe You ‘cause I was taught to as a kid
And did I stop 'cause all my friends did
I keep looking for a reason
And try to follow my convictions


But I am afraid
That I won't find the way
I have been saved
But is that enough
To open up Your gates


I worry that I carry in my blood
All the things that my father was
That I've received all his addictions
And all the sins will be repeated
I so I wear his wedding ring
To remind me of the promises I made him
But more often than not
I just reminds me how often I break 'em


I feel it suffocate
All of my good intentions
I feel it surfacing
And I don't know how to prevent it
And I am afraid
That you'll get in my way
I have been saved
But is that enough
To open up Your gates


You're taking your time
Am I wasting mine
The feelings there it won't quit
But I'm getting better
At ignoring it


And if I was completely honest with myself
About the things that I love the most
I would have to admit that You don't even come close
And I have tried to make it work
But it is always the same
So is it worse to lie to yourself
Or to know and not be able to change


When it is done
We'll all get what we deserve
We will be judged
As we judge each other
And I am afraid
That I won't ever change
I have been saved
But is that enough
To open up Your gates